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On Track helps young people get into work, education or training

General

Confidential, friendly support from coaches who understand your challenges and can help you to set and reach goals.

Coaching

GO Programme workshops and courses to develop your skills and confidence.

GO Programme

Help to find the jobs and training that are right for you.

Move On

Mentors to give you more help and support when you need it once you’ve reached your goal. A chance for you to get involved in the project.

Participation

Diary of a Rising Phoenixx (A Participant’s Story)

‘Spontaneity vs Planning it all vs Planning the Unknown’

I have a pretty big issue with being spontaneous – in the sense that I almost always hate it when people are spontaneous. I can’t understand why some people insist on just doing things without having any idea of what they’re gonna do; it could be that they like adventure, but I need more structure than that (most of the time). When I was in school, I knew people who would apparently just go to their friends’ homes without agreeing on it beforehand; I tended to stay inside, preferring to not leave the protective and familiar bubble my home offers me – since then I’ve grown and have become a bit more confident, but I still need at least a day or a few to get things settled in my head properly, so I know where and when I’m going, who I’m going to be with, and what will probably be happening. Maybe I can deal with meeting up with certain friends and just winging it, but for things/people that are not so familiar, I need to know.
I’ve had a friend call me an hour before they wanted to meet, knowing full well I hate it when people do that. On the other hand, I’ve had friends plan things with me a week in advance.
There are also occasions that are mostly planned, but I’m not really prepared for – which leads me to a group I joined a little while ago called ‘On Track’.
It was a few days after my first session with the Monday Club, that I headed to the job centre, a rather bad case of stress-induced nausea hitting me (but I dragged myself there anyway); this is an instance in which I knew about the details of the meeting, but I had no idea what we were going to talk about, so I started stressing. I wasn’t left waiting long, before being called into a room, the nervous fidgeting beginning almost immediately, and carrying through the whole time I was sat across the desk from the man I’d agreed to meet. We talked for a while – the very obvious subject of my anxiety coming up at some point – before he suggested I speak to a man from On Track (a group which I was told could help me get passed my anxiety to help get into work); I would have to wait a little while, but I knew I had no other plans for the day, so I stayed. Although my hands were subtly shaky, my anxiety levels had dropped noticeably by the time I spoke with the On Track man. Not long after that day’s events, I started emailing back and forth with my new On Track coach, and we agreed on a place and moment in time to meet.
The day came when I was meant to meet her. I was a bit nervous – as I always am when meeting new people – but not to the point where I felt sick; I had no idea what we would be talking about or if we would be leaving our initial meeting place (we didn’t), but I didn’t feel so ill. Maybe talking over the internet for a little while had helped, or maybe that day was just a less anxious day. We’ve met up a few times since then, so it has become a pretty familiar thing to do, making it easier to see her without worrying about it.